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‘I thought everything was as it should be. I believed that it was all up to me. As if I was in control. ‘

I wasn’t.

‘Then I lost everything I thought that I knew. I couldn’t see that you were leading me to something beautiful.’

Fuck that.

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‘I thought the storm would never come to an end. I begged you again and again, to send a miracle.’

… and you didn’t.

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‘but the storm was the way you broke my heart open wide to get to what was hidden inside, and call it beautiful.’

Really God? Such a bullshit hand I’ve been dealt and sometimes I hate you for it. I hate that you picked me to be strong enough to handle it.

Mostly.

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‘Here I am, I’m all in, though it feels like falling. If that’s what it takes for you to break though, give me the faith when I’m afraid to say…’

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I didn’t choose any of this, but somehow you’re giving me the grace to find my way through.

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Until next time,

~A