Even If

… I don’t understand.

Even If

… it hurts like fucking hell.

Even If

… I have to let go and say goodbye to the man who was the very best father and thought every single one of our fabulous 5 hung the moon. The same 5 that kept their mom above water when he died.

Even If

… I have to watch our children grow up to be the most kick ass adults that we always prayed they would become, alone.

Even If

… I feel like the wrong parent died.

Even If

… Not one Goddamn thing makes any sense in my world anymore.

God apparently has a plan and He knows the outcome.

Even If I Don’t.

Until next time,

-A

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