Finding the calm in the chaos has never been a strong sticking point for me. I STRUGGLED. Like legit struggled every single day to show up, control the narrative and force some sort of outcome. For those of you unfamiliar, that’s a straight up trauma response -!: and… it’s exhausting. Urgency is directly related to the part of the brain trying to heal from trauma. It hurts and we need it to end. There’s full on panic and a race to the finish line until it does. Blast of a shit time, just saying. (Side note: it also never works. Not for this girl at least.) This year was a…