It’s no secret to anyone close to me that my entire world has changed in the worst fucking way imaginable. It’s also not a secret to those same people that some days I don’t carry myself in the best of ways. If pushing people away were an Olympic sport I would not only get the gold medal, I would also hold the world record. Fight on, fighter. There are days when it feels like it would be easier to give up. Giving up would be the appropriate response to all of the shit I’ve been through. Fight on, fighter. There have been days that I wake up and wish I…